i am wierd these days
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i do not understand why
i feel like crying every morning when i wake up
[minus-ing all the weekday's morning when i am too tired to be awake]
its always on the weekends
i am no longer happy
weekends is the time for me to slack and at the same time, complete as much hw as i can
and of course be happy and smile instead of crying
this is wierd
is it due to the stress from the workload i am receiving or is it due to sth else?
i dont know

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had dinner with mel ytd night [including some other nice pple]
she wasnt in sn u nor in the same uniform that i wear.
i just realise she's no longer wif me
xy was really tired
glen, me, lh was wide awake as ....haha we slpt for a few hours at home in the afternoon
took the lift in wisma up and down and up and down .
not so sure of how many times, but then i am sure that i enjoyed myself ytd night
seeing mel and van makes me a little happier

but still, when i was awake this morning, i felt like crying again.
but tears just do not stream out of my eyes
my heart is crying. i dont know what for
this is hurting me. i need to find out the reason really soon
or just hope for this feeling of helplessness to go away soon.

i am trying to be happy. whenever i am with my friends, i am happy
whenever i am with my family, i am happy. i smile. but whenever iam left alone, i am smiling still but at the same time, i feel like crying

someone please take this away from me. i want to be happy
really happy as before !!